low void energy

do you have it?

i do.

hey there anti-reader! how’s it going? anything new?

i’m back stateside and the best thing about it has been reuniting with my beloved forest. i’ve said it before and i’ll say it again- the forest saaaaaves me. it’s no wonder i care so much about saving it, too. but it doesn’t need me. no, no the earth has been saving itself for longer than i can fathom.

i am back in a city where you need to have a car to get anywhere and i do not have a car, nor do i want one for a multitude of reasons that i will not bore you with here. as you can imagine this isn’t helping my “feeling stuck” scenario we analyzed last time. but i go walk barefoot in the forest and things sorta make sense again. they make sense because it quickly reminds me that less is more. that cliche. but as someone who has been struggling with material insecurity it is a welcomed reminder.

i typically don’t buy many ~things~ when i travel. i choose to travel lightly, in all the ways, and ~things~ aren’t really conducive to that movement. that freedom. there was a painting in an art center that had pages of a book about the colonization of mexico pasted to it. i was reading it and there was a part about the spaniard doin’ their colonizer thing starting shit with the aztecs and on these pages i was reading it was talkin bout how part of the reasons the spanish lost this particular battle was because they were weighed down by all the “booty” they’d stolen. gold and other natural resources and sacred items taken as riches and souvenirs. people will say things like when you have nothing you have nothing left to lose and yeah, sure, that is definitely a reality that exists. but i believe there is a little more depth to it than that.