Committing to Summer

yes i know it's winter

back in may of last year i wrote an essay for a friend’s publication which i’ve mentioned previously. the theme was summer and i was anxious. i’ve seemingly spent a lot of time in limbo throughout my life but then again, isn’t All of Life technically a kind of Waiting? i think perhaps we spend a lot more time “waiting” for things to happen than we’d like to admit. we seem to keep ourselves busy with other little desires in the interim to distract from that fact but honoestly, Life has always felt quite liminal to me. and it is, really. we’re going to die one day and the Life mission will finally be complete.

anyway !

writing this essay inspired me to try a new thing— commitment.

more on that later ! for now i wanted to share the recently published essay with my Special Subs (paid subscribers that make this whole [online] ANTIEXPERIENCE thing possible). why not have a taste of summer in the dead of (a northern hemisphere) winter? one of my favorite Real Life Video Games is called Islands in the Winter. it’s when i go to an island in the winter and it saves me in a deeply physiological way. i started playing in 2016, but i skipped last year’s, and i was basically sick for 4 months straight. consider this your digital taste of Islands in the Winter. maybe sit yourself under a lamp with a warm toned bulb to give the illusion of sunshine.