Big High Priestess Energy

a compilation of recent musings

my mind doesn’t blame him but my body does. this is a familiar feeling.

i notice resentment. my body recoils at the touch though my mind wishes she wouldn’t.

i want to be alone but cannot accomplish anything alone. this is unsettling.

i hate asking for help. i lash out when i feel threatened and, as it turns out, i feel highly threatened when physically injured. as it also turns out, you have to ask for a lot of help when you’re physically injured. i am able-bodied and conscious of what i put in it. growing up with inconsistent access to healthcare but consistent access to culture, specifically mi abuelita—Lita, i accessibly (inexpensively) prioritized my health and, by extension, the health of the earth. it’s nothin’ fancy. nature speaks in fractals, which could be to say the world is a fractal.